Okay, first of all, I actually cannot believe that I am writing this post. Just the other day my little girl was born, calm, wide eyed, and as beautiful as ever. Tomorrow she is turning 5 years old.
It is crazy to think just how quickly time flew by. Being absorbed and captured by your effortless enthusiasm has made this journey so much more worth it. You have grown into a beautiful, strong willed, self-sufficient little girl I ever did know. You ask a lot of questions and are never afraid to demand an explanation for the answers you get. You are hyperactive and barely want to rest. You are brave and yet so gently. Kind and yet assertive. You are YOU and I love that about you.
I would be lying if I said everyday with you has been a walk in the park but I wouldn’t be completely honest if I said I didn’t enjoy it. There’s been days were I wanted to just walk away from it all. Days where I got so overwhelmed by the responsibility to take care of you, and those where I was just too tired to even put myself together. And then there’s been days where I wanted more of you. Days where my heart broke a little bit when you said you were going to go play with your friends because I wanted so bad to just stay in bed and cuddle you a little longer. The days where all I wanted to do is love you a little harder and hold you a little closer. These days outweigh the not so good days by far.
Being your mother has been one of the most fulfilling adventures I’ve had in my life to date.
I only wish and pray that you never loose the sparkle in your eyes, the drive to learn more and your ever so sweet and sassy personality for my dear child, being true to who you are is what will help you navigate through the crazy bits of life.
I have loved you from the minute I took a pregnancy test that one fateful day in January 2013 and I will continue to love you for as long as I live. You have taught me more about myself and life than I ever thought possible and for that I will forever be grateful.
Keep shining your light and asking those billion questions, and always remember that Mommy loves you all the way to the moon and back infinity times.
Happy 5th birthday little one.