Yesterday I realized something that actually had me speechless for a moment.
I need help!
I have been away from home since I was 15 years old. From Boarding school to University, then of course Apartment/House. In between those, I never have been home for more than 2 months at a time. And no, I am not complaining! I have learned a ton of things along this journey and though I didn’t notice it in some moments, now when I look back, I realize that it was truly life changing.
I have learned to depend on ME, to hustle, to survive, and to get what I want with very little help – if any. All this is GREAT stuff but what I failed to realize is that I don’t have to do all that anymore. I have someone to share the load with!
In my previous post, I mentioned how I thought last year I had to do it all… Truly I did! After-all this is what i’ve been doing for almost 13 years. Literally almost half of my life. So it kind of comes naturally to me now. I want to clean, cook, play with little one, do well at work, attend to all my hobbies, and still come out on top.
How is this even possible?…Honestly I don’t even know!
Yesterday I had a profound conversation with a complete stranger. A conversation that may have changed my life FOREVER. It really was just random. I was just doing my normal walk from work to home, bumped into a stranger and started talking. I won’t bore you with the details of the conversation but at the end of it, I realized 2 important things:
- I need to ask for help more, but
- It’s really difficult for me to ask for help
I stay with my Boyfriend – the father of my 3 year old – and our daughter. To them I am this superhuman that can do everything and still smile through it all. What they don’t realize is that sometimes, i’m really just tired and want to make it stop…I just want to take a minute to breathe. To stop worrying about how messy the house is, about what we going to eat, to just stop worrying about everything really!
But asking for help is not something that comes natural to me.
I’ve always believed that *I got this*. That I can do everything and anything I set my mind to and truly I have been able to. But now I don’t have to do everything. I have someone who’s there and willing to offer any kind of help I may need. All I have to do is ask.
The stranger I met yesterday has no idea what she has done for me but I know that she has seriously changed my life and for that I will keep her in my memories always. I might not ever see her again but I will never forget her.
Not Superhuman, only just an ordinary Human 🙂 . And it’s okay to ask for help. It doesn’t mean you are any less capable.
Have you ever met a stranger that changed your life a bit?